01. Maybe Memories   as we trudge along through the mud, and we tried to call it home we weren't alright, no not at all, not for one for one for one second never have been one to write it down? now i think i can, i know i'm stronger now who's looking south, no i'm not looking back i'm done denying the truth to anyone, cause i'm alive as we trudge along through the mud, and we tried to call it home we weren't alright, no not at all, not for one for one for one second you showed me how, you seemed to find a hole but i just laughed and smiled, begged and rolled my eyes even cried and denied the truth to you, just like the truth to me mostly lied i'm not going to look back. i'm not going to look back. i'm not going to look back. white it out like glittering wax butterflies (butterflies, butterflies) never have been one to write it down? now i think i can, i know i'm stronger now who's looking south, no i'm not looking back i'm done denying the truth to anyone, cause i'm alive i'm not going to look back. i'm not going to look back. i'm not going to look back. I'M NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK I'M NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK I'M NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK I'M NOT GOING TO LOOK BACK 02. The Taste Of Ink   is it worth it? can you even hear me? standing with your spot light on me not enough to feed the hungry i'm tired and i felt it for awhile now in this sea of lonely the taste of ink is getting old it's four o'clock in the fuckin' morning each day gets more and more like the last day still i can see it coming while i'm standing in the river drowning this could be my chance to break out this could be my chance to say goodbye at last it's finally over couldn't take this town much longer being half dead wasn't what i planned to be now i'm ready to be free so here i am, it's in my hands and i'll savor every moment of this so here i am, alive at last and i'll savor every moment of this and won't you think i'm pretty when i'm standing top the bright lit city and i'll take your hand and pick you up and keep you there, so you can see as long as you're alive i promise i will take you there we'll drink and dance the night away we'll drink and dance the night away so here i am, it's in my hands and i'll savor every moment of this so here i am, alive at last and i'll savor every moment of this savor every moment of this as long as you're alive here i am i promise i will take you there as long as you're alive here i am i promise i will take you there would you think i'm pretty when i'm standing top the bright lit city and i'll take your hand and pick you up and keep you there, so you can see it as long as you're alive here i am i promise i will take you there as long as you're alive here i am i promise i will take you there so here i am, it's in my hands and i'll savor every moment of this so here i am, alive at last and i'll savor every moment of this savor every moment of this savor every moment of this   03. Bulimic   from the way that you acted to the way that i felt it it wasn't worth my time and now it's sad cause all i missed wasn't that good to begin with now i've started you begging and saying things you don't mean it isn't worth my time a line's a dime a million times and i'm about to see all of them goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you call my name when i wake up to see things go your way i'm coughing up my time each drag's a drop of blood, a grain a minute of my life it's all i've got just to stay down then why the fuck am i still down? i'm hoarding all that's mine each time i just let one slip by i've wasted what is mine goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. my time.. my time.. my time.. my time.. i'm about to see a million things i thought i'd never see before and i'm about to do all of the things i dreamed of and i don't even miss you at all i'm about to see a million things i thought i'd never see before and i'm about to do all of the things i dreamed of and i don't even miss you at all goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. you're taking up my time goodbye to you, goodbye to you.. 04. Say Days Ago   i still remember a year ago the times we spent i think that i'm happier now up from the down by all means it's strange cause i feel the same way i think of what it looks like i think of what it tastes like same strange cause i feel the same i still remember what it tastes like, what it felt like makes me ill me ill i think of what it looks like i think of what it tastes like same strange cause i feel the same i think of what it looks like i think of what it tastes like 05. Poetic Tragedy   the cup is not half empty as pessimists say as far as he sees, nothing's left in the cup a cup full of nothing for him to indulge since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere he gave heed to nothing and all that he was, was just a tragedy so he voyages in circles, succeeds getting nowhere and submits to the substance first got him there then in violent frustration, he cries out to god or just no one is there a point to this madness, and all that he was, was just a tragedy he feels alone his heart in his hand he's alone he feels alone i feel.. then on that last day he breaks and he stood tall and he yelled, and he yelled fighting frustration, he cries out to god or just no one is there a point to this madness, and all that he was, was just a tragedy 06. Buried Myself Alive   you almost always pick the best time to drop the worst lines you almost made me cry again this time another false alarm, red flashing lights well this time, i'm not going to watch myself die i think i made it a game to play your game and let myself cry i buried myself alive on the inside so i could shut you out and let you go away for a long time i guess it's okay i puked the day away i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask i think the chain broke away and i felt at the day that i had my own time i took advantage of myself and felt fine but it was worth the night i caught an early flight and i made it home i guess it's okay i puked the day away i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask nicer than that nicer than that with my foot on your neck i finally have you right where i want you i guess it's okay i puked the day away i guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask nicer than that nicer than that and if you want me back you're gonna have to ask nicer than that.. nicer. 07. A Box Full Of Sharp Objects   it's our time to shine through the down glorified by what is ours we've fallen in love.. we fall in love.. it was the best idea i ever had. today i fell and felt better just knowing this matters, i just feel stronger.. and sharper! i found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing today i fell and felt better just knowing this matters, i just feel stronger.. and sharper! i found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing today i fell and felt better just knowing this matters, i just feel stronger.. and sharper! i found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing do you want a song of glory? well i'm fucking screaming at you it's our time to shine through the down glorified by what is ours we've fallen in love.. we fall in love.. it was the best idea i ever had. today i fell, it felt better just knowing this matters, i just feel stronger.. and sharper! i found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing 08. Blue And Yellow   it's all in how you mix the two and it starts just where the light exists it's a feeling that you can not miss and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it it won't come your way, yeah i should've done something, but i've done it enough by the way, your hands were shaking i'd rather waste some time with you well you never would've thought in the end how amazing it feels just to live again it's a feeling that you can not miss and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it it won't come your way, yeah i should've done something, but i've done it enough by the way, your hands were shaking i'd rather waste some time with you i should've said something, but i've said it enough by the way, my words are fading i'd rather waste some time with you waste some time with you.. i should've done something, but i've done it enough by the way, your hands were shaking i'd rather waste my time with you i should've said something, but i've said it enough by the way, my words are fading i'd rather waste my time with you waste some time with you.. 09. Greener With The Scenery   you took it back how could you go and do something like that? my fingernail phase the worst has got the best of you i ask you and i know i need a change you took it back you rip my heart out of my then you put it back i'm pulling my hair i let you just a million times i love you even though it isn't fair around we go, around again.. circles play this game over again around we go, around again.. circles you took it back you rip my heart out of me then you put it back i'm pulling my hair i let you just a million times i love you even though it isn't fair around we go, around again.. circles play this game over again around we go, around again.. circles 10. Noise And Kisses   look in my eyes, i'm jaded now, whatever that means by sharing these things, i rip my heart out it's worth my time, whatever that means. hard to see up, my neck feels stiff until i wake up, the orange i choked back to my neck it's worth my time, whatever that means. share with me cause i need it right now let me see your insides write me off, cause i'd rather starve now if you won't open up give it to me, give me all, whatever you want it's never been me to want this much from you i can see share with me cause i need it right now let me see your insides write me off, cause i'd rather starve now if you won't open up you won't open up it tears me up.. it tears me up. look in my eyes, i'm jaded now, whatever that means but show me these things, i rip my heart out it's worth my time, whatever that means. share with me cause i need it right now let me see your insides write me off, cause i'd rather starve now if you won't open up you won't open up share with me (yeah it tears me up) cause i need it right now let me see your insides (tears me up) write me off, (and it tears me up) cause i'd rather starve now if you won't open up you won't open up 11. On My Own   see all those people on the ground wasting time try to hold it all inside (but just for tonight) on top of the world sitting here wishing the things i've become.. but something is missing maybe i.. what do i know? and now it seems that i have found nothing at all wanna hear your voice out loud slow it down, slow it down without it all, i'm choking on nothing it's clear in my head, and i'm screaming for something knowing nothing is better than knowing it all on my own.. without it all, i'm choking on nothing it's clear in my head, and i'm screaming for something knowing nothing is better than knowing it all on my own.. 12. Pieces Mended   being faced with what i'm faced with i feel like i can't rock like a rock hit my heart started to chain the day and exploded into pieces marry me, stay the same lie to me, and try to say you never will marry me, stay the same lie to me, and try to tell me i've got a feeling in my gut now it fills me with so much hope said fuck it i'm fine dime and dashed the pianist peddled into morning.. marry me, stay the same lie to me, and try to say you never will marry me, stay the same lie to me, and try to tell me being faced with what i'm faced with i feel like i can't rock like a rock hit my heart started to chain the day and exploded into pieces pieces, pieces, pieces pieces... pieces... pieces. Choke Me (Hidden Track)   as of now i'm down straight up and i can turn to the box for some peace or a box for a piece or a box for a smoke but they're all gonna choke me you're so crazy enough in a way that i'll probably say you destroyed me for awhile i was cleaner than now then i started to destroy myself with things that i love now the things that i hate until it finally broke me fuck my ass choke me Just A Little (Unreleased)   you surprise me, i'm looking out surprise me you jump back up on your feet somehow where'd you go? it seems like your better half said it all you're wonderful seems like your better half said it all you jumped back up motivation... motivation     Lyrics By Bert McCraken